Valentine's day.

It's this time of year again. The day when all the singles suffer the pain of not having the one THEY love by them. It's singles awareness day. Who needs a guy when there are so many friends out there that care about you right? It's just a day of sharing love, you don't NEED to be taken, even though it feels much better.

Well, today was... depressing as always. I mean, if I’m sad normally, imagine today… I wanted to cry so many times, but I made a promise that I wouldn’t cry today. I’ll be strong for my friends’ sake. But I can’t guarantee that I can keep this up any longer. I might cry tonight. Or maybe cry myself to sleep again. I look back on the roses I got in the past, and I think about how I got them, and cherished them. Now that I want to cherish it, I don’t have any to do so.

I went to 花岛 to eat with some friends.(After school) I remembered when Alex and I went there to eat that one afternoon. We were at my house alone. My sister went to the mall with her friends. Alex was hungry, and I was lazy to cook, so we went out to eat. We both got curry I believe. I was complaining that there wasn’t enough rice. And Alex told me, “How do you know you don’t have enough, if you haven’t started eating? Just finish it first.” Ha-Ha. In the end, I didn’t even finish the curry, he did though. And we fought over the bill too. He won-.-“ like always… good times, good times.

I wonder what Alex got Quyen for Valentine’s Day. I think I won’t talk to him today… just because I believe they should spend every second together. I know that they can do more stuff than I can ever do with him. I know that they can have much more fun then I can ever have with him. That’s why they should enjoy ever moment together; this is their first valentine’s day together. I hope they have fun.

I remember our first valentine’s day together. He came all the way to my house at night, just to give me Pandiiee and candy with a rose (: Like I said, moments I cherish… that I can’t cherish anymore. I love you Alex. I don’t care what people say. I don’t care what you say, but I just love you. No one can stop that now. It’s too late to turn back on love. I just love you. I know that there may never be that chance again, but I will still love you. I don’t know if I’m even making sense right now, I just need you to understand how I feel about you. I know that you say that you know how I feel. But I just need to express it even more. I’m sorry I’ve hurt you. I can’t forgive myself for EVER hurting you. I really don’t give a Dam about anything else right now. I just miss you. I just need you. I just love you.

Hey, it’s Valentine’s Day… love the one you love. Show that you love them. I don’t know how I can show mine… How can I show you I love you?