alone again.

Fuck you guys okay!?


Yhea, I blame myself too. I know i'm doing this to myself ! I just feel lonley,uncared for, un loved, and whatever else i feel. toda was a alright day i guess. It's just a normal day. besides the fact its a shorten day.

right now, I'm upstairs in my little room, alone, with nothing to do but cry and hate on myself ! not even the music can change my mood. I TRY to crank up my music, i even chose rock to express the anger, but it's not working ! I have chips, and other food to stuff my face with. I was suppose to surprise someone today, but plans changed.. i don't even feel like doing it anymore. it's not exciting anymore. joyce and i was planning to just chill in my room as my sister and her future boyfriend get to hang out.. but i plans changed too. so here i am upstaire as the parties downstairs. haha "party" not literally. :P seems like i'm pulling myself away huh? or am i? i dont think i am...

I wish i was invisible. literally. maybe then i wouldnt feel so.. iono. I would feel better about myself. cause then i was REALLY invisible. i have nothing to blame when people dont see me nor even know i exist. (haha i sound so emo) but its the truth.








bare with me if you can, i've just been REALLY stressed and moody lately.