Phone calls.

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE REJECT MY CALLS ! IF YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ME THEN JUST PICK UP AND SAY SO ! gosh !


never believe it when someone say "i'll call you back okay?" Right Joyce? cause you know what? We end up waiting all day and night for their DAM phone call ! The next time someone rejucts my call, imma reject their calls. see how they like it ! and same thing with the "call you back" ! well then again, there are times when people DO call back... So... whatever.




^-- this applies to EVERYONE ! it's annoying you know !

alone again.

Fuck you guys okay!?


Yhea, I blame myself too. I know i'm doing this to myself ! I just feel lonley,uncared for, un loved, and whatever else i feel. toda was a alright day i guess. It's just a normal day. besides the fact its a shorten day.

right now, I'm upstairs in my little room, alone, with nothing to do but cry and hate on myself ! not even the music can change my mood. I TRY to crank up my music, i even chose rock to express the anger, but it's not working ! I have chips, and other food to stuff my face with. I was suppose to surprise someone today, but plans changed.. i don't even feel like doing it anymore. it's not exciting anymore. joyce and i was planning to just chill in my room as my sister and her future boyfriend get to hang out.. but i plans changed too. so here i am upstaire as the parties downstairs. haha "party" not literally. :P seems like i'm pulling myself away huh? or am i? i dont think i am...

I wish i was invisible. literally. maybe then i wouldnt feel so.. iono. I would feel better about myself. cause then i was REALLY invisible. i have nothing to blame when people dont see me nor even know i exist. (haha i sound so emo) but its the truth.








bare with me if you can, i've just been REALLY stressed and moody lately.

Just another day.

I got my class ring ! <33

I love love love it ! <33

but my mom made me put it away T.T she said with my clumsiness, i might break it, lost it or get it stolen ): and i was looking forward to wearing that ring T.T I wanted a new ring ! D;< ring ring ring <33 i love rings! haha :P

well, umm.. nothing really nre today, Hmm.. I don't know when to ask him. I cant think or the perfect time to ask him. its raining tomorrow Wednesday Thursday AND Friday. I think.. so there's no like nice place to go and surprise him. other problem is... I dont know how imma get the money for the dance;/ cause $120 is a LOT of money... but that sure is less then what Alex lost at Marongo.. JK jK! forget i said that (: don't get mad at me okay Alex? (:

Bored ! I'm getting bad grades. I'm scared i wouldnt get into Cal Poly! T.T

help!?

I don't think theres ganna be anymore "falling in love" for me. Cause i think i've already "Fallen in love" with someone. and yet, I'm not so sure about that. who knows, I might just dig my hole even deeper.. then i'll be falling further in love xD Wow.. Thats so cheesee !

I'm thinking about going to winterformal. I also have someone in mind.. but i'm scared he might not want to go.. cause the day of winterformal's also a very special day for him.

What i need:
~ a good plan to surprise him.
- with the help of some friends
- his house
- poster/banner/cookies/cake/balloons
- etc.
~ money
- tickets
- materials
- other stuff ;]
- place
BLAH ! i cant think o.-"


Need guys opinion!
How would you like to be surprised if a girl asked you to a dance? :P
is setting everything in your house without you knowing too creepy ?!

ahh, i've never done this.. a lil help here? please? :P

room mate story.

I was in 4th period today.
mu English teacher told us something about room mates cause that's what we were reading in our story.
so like he told us about how much he "disliked" his room mate cause every night he would bring friends over.. up until who knows when. And then there are those nights when he would bring some girl over.
so like mr. hiett told us that his room mate has a girlfriend back at his home town and that every night he would call her and tells her how much he's madly in love with her.. and that he cant live without her. My teacher called him a jack-ass cause he cheats on her like every other night.. and then tells his girlfriend that he loves her.
you know why i brought this up? because after he told us that... I don't really look forward to college so much anymore. cause who knows... my future boyfriend might just do that to me too.. i dont know.. only they would know..
you tell me.. HOW can i start trusting guys now? do they deserve to be trusted? i know not all guys are like that but still, once your insecure, everyone and everything's the same. so no offense to you other goody-good guys. so; i apologize to Gerard if i a offended you, it's just you know what i mean.

advice column from school.

Wanna read something that i read in our school newspaper today?

I have a best friend. he was once my boyfriend. He tells me that he loves me very much and that he can't live without me, but at the same time, he has a girl that he is dating. he likes her. My question is, can or does he truly love me even though he's dating someone else?

This was "Mr. Advice" said to that anonymous writer...
B.I. - If he is already with someone, don't pursue him and don't let him pursue you. There are hundreds of other guys at our school who would love to take you out, and I'm sure you have a wonderful personality that should be admired. Your EX has no intention of hurting your feelings, but it looks like he's somewhat a ladies man, begging for attention, or he could be unaware of the words he uses. Tell your EX to stop leading you on because he's in a relationship and both you and his new girl need respect. As you tell him, pull him aside from your friends and his friends to show him how serious the situation is. If he were truly a good friend, he would understand your reasoning and you would both remain good friends.

Haha. Isn't that a nice answer? haha. jk. I dont know, i just thought it was interesting. don't you agree ? xD the second column wasn't that interesting.. cause it was about nursing school... i have nothing to do with that. ha ha. I wanna be an architect, i don't need a nursing school xD

Random thoughts.

Read them, then understand them. You'll get it.

I cherish every moment that we're together. lovers and friends.

I wanted you. Like that matters right? jk [;

Fuck you ! [;

You are the reason, I'm here where I am today.

I love those days, when it was just you&&me.

It's the little things that make me love you, but it's also the little things that make me sad, angry, pissed, wonder, think, and pray.

You were my everything. You kinda still are. who am I kidding, you are.

I love how we're always on step when we walk next to each other.

Choose.

You can only have so much in life, everyone knows you can't have everything. It's the way of life.

words are words, actions are actions
but to mean it all; that's a total different story.

I just wish you understood me.

I thought that I could hold it in, but I guess I was wrong.