Past notes.

sometime in September of 2006
"Why didn't I brake up with him when I had the chance? I mean, how can I be so soft and still hold on to someone like him? He done so much wrong, and STILL I stay. Sometimes, Like now, I wonder.. "If he said that he loves me, and that he misses me like crazy, WHY, why would he do such things to me?" I trusted him. And still he... I don't know why I would do such stupid things. It's like, would you stay with them if they cheated on you? I know most girls won't. but I dont know why I'm so different. I just love him, I don't want to lose him. I guess Thats why."

October 1 of 2006
"10 months of this relationship between us. we have been though the thick and thin. we say we love eachother with all our hearts. But why so I feel like somethings not right? like something isn't equal. The fact that we don't talk as much as we use to. we use to say that we will talk to eachother everyday, about how our day went. Ever since yesterday, I feel like I'm keeping something away from you. Do you feel like I'm keeping something away from you? I guess writing these notes really is like keeping something away from you."
^I found a new song that day. 360 - Josh Hoge It's like i predicted the break up.

October 2 of 2006
"Today is the 10/2 and still thinking about what happened yesterday. we have been though thick and thin, but I guess it just doesn't cut it. You I love you and you still break up with me. was it something I did? why would you.. *sigh* I dont want to say anymore. I guess we just wasn't meant to be. Just know I will always be here for you. Be glad your moving on(;"

October 16 of 2006
"I think he broke up with me because he didn't want to hurt me anymore.(when he finds out that I kinda like another, He got all jealous.) When he finally realize that he loves me, he wants me back. But he didn't cause he was afraid. He didn't want people to think that he was some kind of player. so we just left it at that. We will acted as were together. Just without the title I guess."
^Thinking back, THATS JUST STUPID!

October 23 of 2006
"If you like her so much just get with her. Just get it over with. you just going to hurt me in the end anyways. I'm crying. So I'm guessing I'm crying myself to sleep tonight. Knowing the fact that you like another girl. You don't have to feel bad for me, Just go do as you like, I just want whats best for you. Don't worry, cause I will Always be here no matter what happens. I can really just die from this pain. I love you, but I just have to learn to let go. This is really hard for me, and you know it. Stop feeling guilty and just move on. I know you can."
^In the end, he told me that the day he broke up with me, he asked her out. (10/01/06)

October 24 of 2006
"WHATEVER! FOR REALZ!"

I'll stop here for now. These memories are to much. More tomorrow(: