Boring day..

UGH! I don't even know what to type anymore. Well, My internet didn't work yesterday. That explains why theres no post for yesterday. Yesterday wasn't that interesting anyways. Since my internet didn't work, I went out with my dad to go buy ink for my printer. Then as went to a Korean Market to go buy some sushi stuff. When I got home, I made sushi for dinner. YUMMY!!(: That was pretty much it.

Today, umm, I think I failed my test. It was hard, and I skipped all the proves. Also that last one done... Hmm, I've drawn a few pictures, I'll upload them later. Nothing interesting happened today either. I think I should stop talking about my day and start writing more poems. Cause my summer's are boring. Especially after summer school. All that free time waisted at home doing nothing. BORING!!(:

Another Day.

Another day that I have to go though. I sometimes wonder why i"m here in this world. I feel like everything I do, Never goes right. Life is such a confusing thing.

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Wow... Gone though a lot today. Alex came over at 5 with John. Joyce was here too. When ever Alex and Joyce meets, they always have this alone time to talk... normally about me. Well, John was sitting on my dads massage chair. I was just sitting in front of my computer typing the entry earlier. After like 30 minutes, Joyce comes in and asks me to go talk to Alex. I lied down with him. He didn't say anything, until John and Joyce started talking about god. Everything they said, all I did was answer. Alex looked at me and disagreed. All he kept on saying was that god sucks, and that he didn't help me.

Com'on you tell me, Who causes the bad on earth? Does god betray people? Or does people/humans cause what's happening on earth? (There's to much that we have talked about to remember them all.) And in the end, John and Alex Both are now Atheist. I don't know how to help them. If only I had someone that was on my side to help prove them wrong. Someone that knows a lot about God and Christianity. I don't know, I think everything is made a little clear. We'll see the next time we meet.

The Rose (Another Day..)

Nothing interesting happened today at school. I went to Joyce's house after school. The whole time at her house, I was drawing the picture. "The Rose"; On the 23 of June, I felt like drawing, but I didn't know what to draw. So I asked Michael what I should draw. He sent me a picture of a rose. I thought to myself, "A rose, Roses are hard." I managed to draw it anyways. I had faith in myself. After two days, I have finished The Rose.

Picture:

Grad. Party.

Today was crazy. I was like running everywhere. It all started at 9. My parents met up with my cousin's and their parents. We went to eat dim sum. After that, We headed back to William's place. Their dog Green Tea get her "PERIOD". So we helped her take a shower, and took her to buy a "PAD" for her.

We took forever looking for the pads, but we finally found it(: When we got out, I realized that I forgot my backpack. I called my mom like twenty thousand times. she wouldn't answer so I went to her place.....(to be continued)

Continuing, (after this, I really have to start on my homework XD)
Well, I went up to the second level of the building she works at. I ran around pathetically; looking for my mom. After like 5 minutes of waiting in front of her door, I finally decided to run around again. As I walked down the hall, My mom called out my name. I looked back, and then she yelled at me or not picking up my phone. I didn't get any calls, buy I guess I was calling her to much.

After that, I asked her for the car keys. I had to go to the P2 floor, (underground parking lot) and then find her car. I got out, and made a guess which door to exit. I guessed the lucky door. I found her car and grabbed my backpack. I thought to myself, now I can go straight to the first floor and get back to the car. Then I realized that I still have my mom's keys. I had to get to the 2nd floor and then back to the 1st floor.

After that, We went back to William's house to grab some stuff, and then we went to lily's house. We basically just Chilled. well, at least everyone ELSE did. I had Homework... Took me three hours to do ALL of my homework... well.. except the last page. I managed to finish it in the morning.

After Homework, I rushed into the Jumper. William and I were Jumping and playing with the Big Blue Ball that they had. We kept throwing it at him. we were aiming for the faces, well at least he was. I was going for the ... Yea... Then after all that excitement, Food came out. So we took a rest, and we ate. (we ate WARM watermelon...EW) Then I sat down and TRIED to draw "The Rose" After I colored the Background, I started to jump in the jumper again.

Some of Geni's friends are crazy, Especially the guys. (DAVID DANG) dude, he put grapes in my shoe, and stuffed ice down my shirt. It felt good, but it was TOO cold after a while. I started to play with the ice. After a while, I went back into the jumper, and I started to tickle William. William squiggled like a warm/fish. It was funny!(:(fun times)

After all Geni's little friends left, We all went in to sing Karaoke. It was fun. William sand funny, I sang a song of my own, and then the rest of the way, I just yelled XD. After 2 hours, we went back into the jumper till 9:30 or so. The I went to eat, (the food was all gone T.T)... WHYY THE FOOD!!): Well, My daddy cooked something and I ate it(; Not long later, We went home... Pretty Fun day.

"Let reality be reality"

"Let Reality Be Reality."

What is the meaning of this quote? Does it mean, I should believe whats happening. My life is real? everything a fantasize should be forgotten?

It's not that I don't believe my life is real. Sometimes I just wish it was more the way I fantasize. But then again, it wouldn't be called "my fantasy" if it was my life. Like I always say, Life goes on.

I rather live a fantasy than this life right now. It's a lot nicer in my fantasy. Everything I want and everything I need is there. Maybe that's why it's called fantasy. Snapping back to reality, It's so complicated. I guess it's just life, I just live it...

(oh, this quote came from a fortune cookie, I just wanted to talk about it.)

Movie's?...

A regular day you can say, well just summer school. After school today, Joyce, Ernest, and I walked to Joyce's house. We waited till Alex came. We were planning to walk to the mall, but we got a ride instead. Joyce had an eye appointment. So Ernest, Alex, and I followed, and waited. I on the other hand, fell asleep. I have no clue why I've been so sleepy lately. But yea, I woke up and walked around a market. I bought a can of Thai Tea. When we got back, Joyce and her mom was done. So Joyce's mom drove us to the mall. We met up with the church people's and we watched Evan Almighty.
(Tiffany, Joyce, Ernest, Sammi, Alex, and I) were sitting in the middle of the rows. Our plan was to sit in an order so that Tiffany can move and sit with her BF. We were suppose to sit two rows from him and avoid her sister. But then when we sat down, Tiffany found out that her sister was going to sit in the row BELOW us. So we changed to the LAST row (it was the only row that can fit us all) When ticked me off was that, I can't see the movie well up there. AND... Tiff's BF made us move, and he didn't want to get out of his original seat.
UGH! So we sat on the to row. Then these two people sits down. It was like 10 mins till the movie starts, so we talked till then. You know how before the movie starts, they have a commercial. It's like a phone ring, baby crying and etc.. WELL, then they say, "Please be quiet, Don't start your own soundtrack." The lady next to us looked at us with an attitude and said,"Did you hear that?"
I got SO ticked off... Whatever. The movie was still great!(:

random

I Think I've fallin back into what I got out of.

Today, all of a sudden, I feel like I belong in his arms. Like I need him with me.

I'm falling deeper into darkness.

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Well yesterday, After school.. Alex came over. We walked to Joyce's house. Cause Joyce had practice at 2, We dropped her off and the hideout and we all walked to my house. Ernest helped "FIX" my computer. Too me it's still the same, he "SAID" it's faster.. RRRIIGGGHHHTTT!! (: Well yea, I fell asleep again. Joyce came to my house after practice, Right after Ernest left too. After Joyce left, Alex left.
After all the fun, it comes to home work.. I slept at 12:43. Still tired.

Chained up heart

You know what's weird? I don't seem to know what I'm thinking about. Besides the fact that I'm thinking about what I'm thinking about. That sounds weird, but its true. Ha Ha, Well anyways.. my day went alright. Nothing really Exciting happened to me today. I noticed now that it has only been the third day of school, and I'm beginning to slack off already. I really should snap out of it. Cause I have ANOTHER test on Friday, and I still don't get how to do freakin' Proofs. I really dislike math. And math dislikes me. We will never be good friends, no matter how hard I try.

Hmm, I have another drawing I drew today, something that looks pretty simple but a lot of work. well, I messed up, then I fixed it up a little, and now it looks a little better.(: I call it, Chained up heart. I think I'm going to try and write a
poem with it. I had a verse on it. "Who's got the key to set me free?"

Why pain.

Another day of missing you,
With all this sorrow I go though.
I Never thought that I could stand,
Or even begin to understand.

Why I cause myself heartache,
Even though I know I can't take.
Another love will just cause pain,
But love for you I can't explain

^Don't ask...I have no clue...);


Well, nothing special happened today. Not even anything good I can remember. So I guess I'll just leave it at the poem.

This song...

This Song that I'm listening to,
A song thats introduced by you.
Creates a strong feeling within,
Like someone stabbed me with a pin.

This sharp pain within my heart,
Had stayed, and will never depart.
Even though its just a song,
The pain will always stay long.

"Once your hurt, you'll stay hurt." -Paley T.T

First Day Of Summer School

I wore up at 6:45 wondering if today was Monday. I've been having to much fun for the last three days, I don't even remember the dates anymore. Well, as I was walking up my street, I was watching all these incoming freshman's find their way in. As I continued, I noticed that every gate door was locked EXCEPT the front one. I just walked into the parking lot.

I called up Joyce to see where she is. I waited for her, and when I finally found her, I had to leave. I was afraid that I was going to be late. I felt so stupid. I walked to the wrong parts of the P buildings, I had to rush to class HOPING I was in the right class. When I got in there, I found my friend Vivian. We both first thought that we were loner's till we saw eachother. I think Mister Wong can't teach. Cause Vivian and I were both in her class, but then again, maybe we just suck at math. I took like 7 Pages of notes today... thats a lot for one day in one class.

At some point of class, we floated off topic. Mister Dawdy was talking about English, and why he never majored in it. He saids that English is DUMB. He asked "Why does dumb end with a B? It's not dumBB" <-- that one isn't as funny as when you hear it. The other one was "Why do they call is apartments? Aren't they together? Then why apart?" && "Why do they call them buildings, when their built already." The class cracked up like crazy.

Well, everything else was normal I guess you can say. Until the last 40 minutes of class... cause in the then minute break, I bought a drink. I drank it all. And you know where you need to go when you finish a drink. Well, I was one problem away to finishing, I really couldn't hold it anymore. UGH! I walked up to Mister Dawdy and asked if I can go to the restroom. He asked if I finished my work. I told him I only had one left. "Then, go finish it" he said.

Ugh! I finished it, I showed him, he starts picking stuff out like, "Show all your work"&"Draw All the Pictures" by the time I was done, It as like 5 minutes till School ended. He finally let me go, I rushed out of class. And you know what he said when I came back? he said to the class, I was being nice today, started tomorrow, no restroom breaks. you know what else ticked me off at the time? Everyone started asking my for the freaking answers. UGH! I'm never drinking anything before or in class.

Nothing Special

There was nothing really interesting that happened today. I woke up, went to my cousin's house, got ready for BBQ, and my cousin's and I watched a home movie.

Happy father's day!

Summer school starts tomorrow. 5 hours, in ONE classroom, with math, and it has to be Geometry too. Five weeks, five hours, on my butt, One word: BOREDOM!(:

Appreciation night

Appreciation Nigh was Awesome! I wished everyone would have gone. Well, My day started off with a breakfast with family. After breakfast, my parents sister and I went to a flower shop and shopped for flowers. At about 12 PM, my dad drove my mom to work. Then we went to my cousin lily's house.

During that time, we just made stuff, watched a movie, and ate a lot(: At about 3:30, I left to school. Class WAS suppose to be today at 4-7PM, But no one told me that there were no school TODAY. So I called up my dad to pick me up. I had to make it home before 6 so I can make it to appreciation night. I was going to go at 8, cause I had school, but plans changed.

On the way home, there was traffic. My dad wanted to Stop by at Fry's cause we haven't been there in a long time. And cause he wants to avoid the traffic. So we went in, just walked around and looked at Cable lines, and Linksys modem's. After an hour, the traffic only got worst. Well, I got home about at 5:30 PM. I got ready, and rushed out of the house. I wore a red and black dress, with black heels. My feet still hurts till now.): well, the party was Awesome.

Wee ate, We played games, We passed awards, We watched video clips. It was Really fun. I made a souvenir for memory. Oh, I saw Joyce wear a dress! She was Beautiful! not that she isn't already everyday. XD I'll upload picture on my myspace later(:

The Lie.

I lied to my parents so I can go out. I know what I did is really wrong. I know I will one day regret lying. But then again, I had fun today. I woke up at 5 in the morning. I left the house at 6, with Joyce. Her dad took us to Monterey park on his way to work. We stopped at Alex's house, right before he went to school. as he's going to school, me and Joyce walked to the park. I promised my cousin Geni that I'll go to her graduation. so I went to the park. We were early like 1 hour, so we just played at the kid's playground.

It was so much fun. There was this one slide thingy. I was like pulling on it. and like it was stuck. After I got it on the right spot, I tried to slide across the thing, but it wouldn't budge. I was like thinking to myself... dude, if I was a little kid, I'd be happy if I even reached it. Not even thinking about pulling myself across the thing. Not even if i put all my might into it moved me. Joyce videoed me; I looked like a fucktard(fucking retared: learned it from my cousin William and Ex Alex).

WEll, anyways, after that, we walked into the stadium. we sat down and hoped my cousin's parents don't see me.(good thing they didn't) I wore a jacket, with my hood on, and the program covering my face.(: After it was over, I ran out as soon as possible. My cousin Geni was glad I came. Right after that, we(Joyce and I + Ernest) walked SLOWLY to Mark Kepple High School. We waited for like an hour, with the seniors. We TRIED to blend in. Everyone there wears like brands. I totally don't blend in. I like to match, and i don't like wearing like Hollister, American Eagle...etc.

Well, after that, I went inside the school, and just walked around. Their school is huge, and very confusing. But we managed to find our way out. We stuck around at school with Alex and his friends. Then we walked to starbucks. We stayed there for like 2 hours. Alex, Joyce and I were talking about what's happening between Alex and I. As that took place, the other guys went next door to play games. Some other people's left.

We went bowling at 2 near 3. It was so much fun. I played better the Frist time I played. I sucked today, I got like 4 place out of like 6 people in my lane. I didn't even get a strike.): Oh well, It was a long day, I think I'll just continue tomorrow. I'm tired. We sure did A LOT of walking today.(:

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After bowling, we went next door to lollycup. I got something to eat cause I was super hungry. Then we went back to starbucks. Really we went to game stop cause thats where all the guys were. So Alex, Joyce and I just went in and played games. We got bored so, we headed back to Alex's house to just chill. At 8, Joyce and I were planning to take the two hour bus ride home. But then with the rate we were walking, we were at the bus stop at like 9. I can't get back home by ten. So, Joyce called up her mom. Her mom picked us up, and I got home at 10:20. Just in time. cause i told my parents that i'll get home at 10 like I normally do. Well its cause I told them I went to church. Stupid lie, but I didn't get cought. atleast not yet.

Last day of school.

Today was an alright day, took the last two finals. The spanish final was HARD! I didn't understand anything. After 5th period, I went home to get money. I was getting ready to go to Universal studios.

Joyce and I followed Kathy to her house. We sat and waited for Kathy's dad to get home. When we arrived at Universal studios, the first thing we did was eat. Then we went on the mummy ride. It was fun. My first time was scary, but this time it was like my third time. It's not scary anymore. But, when we were exiting the ride, there were these mummy statues. I was like, these went here the last time I came. So I stepped up to the first one. I looked at it for like two seconds, and the mummy scared the shit out of me. Dude, everyone laughed at me. Joyce laughed and then ran to me and gave me a hug. she's like, out of all the people, you just had to be the one to get scared. HA HA. Well, after the mummy, we went on Jurassic Park. I'm still scared of drops. I don't think my heart can stand THAT much excitement. After that ride, we ran back to the mummy ride. When we came out, we were planing to go on Jurassic Park but it closed. So we just exited universal and walked the City walk. I bought lots of Candy!(:

I think that's it for the day. I didn't get to see him today, oh wells.

Heart Broken

OMGosh, I just can't write a good poem. I just don't have the heart to. You have no idea how sad I am right now. When I try to smile, all there it are tears. I'll think of this poem soon. Maybe after all this frustration and pain.

Drawings

These are drawings that I have done in the last two days.


^I'm thinking about making my own prom dress. Which one looks better?

^Just regular drawings that I draw when I'm bored.

weird but yet awesome day.

For such a short day, I sure have a lot to write. Well here I go:

Today I wonk up at like 6:55. I forgot to sent my alarm on last night. Well, I woke up from this really weird dream. My Ex had a twin, Joyce was there(forgot what she was doing), Tiffany was there, she was wearing this dress(really pretty), Tiffany's boyfriend(that was laughing at me and Tiffany), and I was just there, wearing a dress that was similar to Tiffany's. And basically, we were all at the movies together.

continue later, I'm going to go eat LOT of food now(:

5:45
Okie, I'm now back home from Susie's house. I ate food(: Good Food(: anyways, continuing.

I think that was all of the dream. So I rushed to school and find that class doesn't start till 7:15. Oh well I thought to myself, more time to copy Joyce's cheat sheet. But NO, the second I stepped into the hideout, took out my paper, Larissa called out, "We need to clean the flags, and my office." So i hurried and cleaned, then moved all the flags back to the office. In the end, I only copied one page. And guess what? I didn't even use it.

Lunch time, I was sitting where I normally am everyday at lunch looking at my crush. But today, he wasn't there, so I just walked around and went back to wait for Joyce. When Joyce came out, she dragged me to go find Michael. We couldn't find him, so we were heading towards the library, and on the way, we saw him. Joyce handed him the yearbook, so he can sign it. we continued to the library, then came back to the table where I normally am. Tiffany kept yelling out weird stuff at Michael. "I apologized for Tiffany, Michael."

6th period, I was scared of finals. But when I found out what our finals was, I was like,"Dude, what does that have anything to do with architecture?" We cleaned out the workshop. I was ok about it at first, then I started breathing in the dust, I almost died. You don't want to know how many times I ran outside just to breathe. After all the cleaning, we sang karaoke. No one went up, so only Mr. Krumm sang.

After school, I went to Susie's house. We all wanted to go to my place, but my sister took the house keys again. (Seriously, she needs to find her keys quick, or I don't know what I'm going to do with her. UGH!) So, we went to Susie's. I ate a lot of food. At least I think I did. More then I have lately. I love food!(:

I'm so happy, I got to see my crush like right in front of me today. Even though it didn't really matter whether I was there or not, but still.

And you know what? I just remembered that I have a power point due tomorrow. something tells me I'm going to stay up pretty late tonight. (again)

Friends? Feelings&ignored.

Am I your friend?
Am I someone you ignore?
Am I Annoying?
Am I Hopeless?

I feel like crying every time I hear the song, More Then Just Friends - 3LW. I think to myself, why does it matter? Are we even friends? Does he even think of me as a friend? Does He think I'm annoying? Is he avoiding me? Does he wish I would just leave him alone? Am I that ugly? Should I just forget about hope? Should i forget about guys? Should I just forget about that guy? There's so many more questions I can ask. But they can never be answered.

I feel hopeless. I feel ignored. I feel like we're just so right for each other. We almost like all the same things. Well, now that I think about it, its not that much. but it's more then I've ever known from any other guy. Not even my Ex matches it. But, then again, I guess we're just not meant to be. If we were, then god will let it happen. And if not, then god will find someone else for me, I guess..

And you know what, I talk about my feelings a lot. Should I really share it to the world? But then again, I have nothing to hide.

last night..

I couldn't sleep last night. My sister and I were talking about her and her Ex-boyfriend like all night. well, i finally talked her out of thinking so much. Or I would have heard her crying her eyes out all night long.

Hmm, After that, I almost fell asleep and then like some dream popped up in my mind. I was a club or party of some sort. And I was dancing with this guy I like. It was weird, cause I don't dance, especially not in public. Then I just couldn't fall asleep again. so basically I didn't sleep all night.

I woke up at my normal time today, at 6:45. Even though I know that today was late day, I know know why I still woke up that early. Oh well, I just used the extra hour to take a LONG hot shower, do a better hairstyle. I even remembered to wear earrings today(:

Well another thing I'm kinda clueless about. Is it true that guy's are clueless, and that no matter how many clues a girl hints on them, they won't get it? I'm just wondering cause one of my guy friends told me that, and I think it's just weird. I don't believe all guy's are like that.

OMGosh, I had to type this post like two time, you know why? cause my computer restarted. Well like i said on the other one, Should I upload my drawings? Maybe later, cause SOMEONE wants to use my computer again. (RAY) the dude that killed my computer and made it restart in the first place.

Will I ever..

Hmm, what to talk about today..

Well, nothing exciting happened today. Oh, and Michael(if your reading this) I'm sorry that my friend Joyce bumped into you. It's not her fault, it was Tiffany's. So anyways, my friend Tiffany got my hope's up about some guy today. Ugh! but then my other friend Ernest brought it back down by telling me that she's lieing, or that she's not telling the truth. So, now I'm like stuck in the middle. Ha Ha, crushes are painful, but yet not as painful as relationships.

When I get home, I'll upload the pictures that I drew like on Friday and today. I don't know why, but even though I'm not looking forward to any relationships any time soon, I still have a crush... do you think that's weird?... or I'm just weird...

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Just scanned my pictures.


Will I ever...
Will I ever know why I love you?
Will I ever be noticed?
Will I ever be loved?
Will I ever get to talk to you?
Will I ever get to see you again?
Will I ever win your heart?
Will I ever obtain your love?
Will I ever be the angel in your eyes?
Will I ever Be loved by you for eternity?
Will I ever get the answer's to these questions?
(to be continued, as long as I live..)

laters..(missing you..)

OMGoshers! My computer won't freakin' work! I mean, my Internet is dead!): Right now I'm using my sister's Internet. Little bit, I have to go to class, so I'll probably update at my cousin's house tonight. Peace out!^^V

7:12

I'm using my cousin Lily's computer. Her&I were just making add ons for yearbooks. I made one for her, but I don't know what to put on it just yet. Well, right now, I have a major headache, tummy ache & my throat freakin' hurts.

Missing you

I sit and wonder when we meet again.
i really, really miss you, but then,
i know there is no hope between us.

Walk up to me if you believe in us,
my world would change then it's just,
you and me for all eternity though.
^ wow, that was crappy, I'll edit it later, cause right now, I'm not really in the mood. I'm just too sad.

Alone

In fifth period, i had to take a stupid writhing final. i was so freaking hard. i basicly just BSed everthing. seriously, i couldnt read anything. hmm, and in sixth period, i got taged all over. im basicly a year bookXD

then after school, i walked around and watch people sign yearbooks.

i'll continue later, i have church.

10:35

so well yea, I was walking, and got people to sign my backpack. After that, I was suppose to go home, and wait for Ray to come to my house so we can walk to church, but NO!, my sis wanted to stay after school. So I had to stayed at school waiting till four. She freaking took my house key's. Oh, and my other two friends, Joyce and Tiffany went to Tiffany's place to do a power point. I was just waiting at school, alone. I was bored so I drew pictures. I'll upload them in here later, like tomorrow.

Then at church, we worshiped&sang songs. Enough, Hungry,and All I need. So after that, we separated into our groups, and in my group, we wrote a letter to ourself. Kathy said that she'll send it to us in two years or so. I can't wait till it comes. I wonder how much I will change(:

I think thats all, thats how my day went. Alright I guess, I just wish my day dream came true. Even though I know it will never happen, but there hopes, I have to keep them up, you'll never know, it MIGHT just happen.

Today and drawings

Hmm, today was an alright day I guess. I FINALLY did my presentations(: I did good i guess. but my essay was BAD. I got a C. Well nothing happened today. Nothing special I can remember.

Here's some drawings I've recently drew:


^I was Bored in class, so I started drawingXD


^I was listening to music, and I just drew this.(:


^I created this for a English assignment. It's My coat of arms.


^I was drew this at lunch today.(:

Stressed and depressed

I don't know what to think anymore,
I don't even know why I'm here for.
Nothing i do seems to go right,
Everything around me, squeezing me tight.

The one I like can't even see me,
The one I loved, is crazy over me.
I can't seem to control my time,
Everything coming after me like a crime.

My architecture teacher is being gay,
I don't even know what to say.
I have a presentation due tomorrow,
But I can't find any info to follow.

I am getting over stressed,
Not only stress but depressed.
I really don't know what to think anymore,
Seriously, what am I here for?

Tired.. poem: Invisible

It's 1:45 in the morning, I'm so freakin' tired. Stayed up till now doing my crappy PowerPoint and essay. I didn't even do my homework): oh well I'll do it in first period. I did such a crappy job on my PowerPoint. Same with the essay. oh well.. there goes my B+. I have no freakin' clue why I'm still writing in here. nights, or good morning you can say(:


4:04PM

Invisible
Am I invisible In your eye?
Can you see me when I past by?
I won't blame you, if you don't,
I don't know why, but i just wont.

But I do hope one day you'll see,
What kind of person i can be.

^I started to write this in 5 period and I finished it after school, during 7th period.

Smile

This was the first time, in a while.
See you look at me with that smile.
Just the smile, you brighten my day,
I hope you always smile my way.

Please always keep that smile on,
So my brighten day will never be gone.

^SMILE!^^

Me and my problems:/

Today was an alright day, I guess. I got a SUPER bad grade on my math test. It was like the worst grade I've ever gotten. 2.5 out of 32, can you believe that? I tried too. But then my architecture made me happy again. I got an 80 out of 75(;

I'll update more later. Peace ^^V

5:10
I'm back from Joyce's house(:

And on my way home, I was thinking to myself.. whats wrong with me? How come I don't eat as much as I use to? Even when I'm SUPER hungry, the second I get the food, and open my mouth, I don't have the appetite anymore. The other thing is that, when I'm in class, I can't seem to pay attention. My mind is like dead. It's like all I want is to get out of class. And during that time, I feel like I can't breathe, like i have to take really DEEP breathes just to breathe. It's so weird. I think I need to see the doctor or something. Oh, and one more thing, I can't seem to walk straight when I'm walking on the sidewalk. UGH!, I Really Need To See The Doctor.

5:38
I want to be a child again.
Just a little before love begin.
I want to be carefree like before,
A carefree childhood's what I wish for.

But now that I've past that stage,
I can't seem to turn back the page.
I know that my books just begun,
And it's a long time till it's done.

I have many blank pages ahead of me,
But I still want things the way it use to be.

This feeling

Can't tell whether I'm happy or sad,
This feeling inside hurts pretty bad.
An emotion that's out of control,
Like something evil captured my soul.

Can someone explain whats going on,
hurry and explain before it's gone.

^I have no clue what i really just wrote, but its true about the painful feeling.

~.:Here's another poem I wrote for class(R&J):.~

Oh have me killed rather then love,
Jump off a plane from high above.
Or take me away to a far away place,
Or leave me floating free in space.
Forbid me to eat when it's needed,
And none these words my be repeated.
Take away the music I listen to,
Or forbid me to do what i want to do.
Make me do my homework all day,
Or force me to do everything your way.
Take away my life if you dare,
And I would do it without fear.
I better start before it begin,
Falling in love with you again.

:Picture I Drew:



^You want the interesting story behind this picture is? I was at Chinese school yesterday, and like I looked at the chalkboard.(You know how there's still little chalk dust on the board after you wiped it?) from far away I see chalk dust, but I went up close and I saw this image. I traced it on the board and then drew it on paper. Scary experience for me. What to you think the picture means?

First Day

I found this site yesterday. So I don't really know how to work this site yet. I was just looking for a site that I can just type my feelings out when I need to. Sometimes I just have to write out my feelings in order to feel better. my life maybe boring, but to me its hard. So far, I know how to work the post and the editing background. I'll catch up soon.(:

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Here I am, repeating my childhood.
Wondering how far I will get in life.
Just when I finally thought I moved on from childish love,
I am back again.