March 16, 2010 - worst of luck

It's so ironic how today is St. Patricks day, the day of luck. Yesterdays just couldnt get any worst... something in my life finally ended. I honestly think that I'm handleing this pretty well because i know i dont want to annoy people around me even more than i already have. So far, its only assumtions that something has happened and only my sister knows the truth but not whole truth. i don't think even i know the whole truth. i think life will be fine after a while, and I will not make the same mistakes again. there is a part of me that will feel like shit, and i know that will never change, but you know what? i think i will do very well on my own for now. I'm not planning to change this, cause i have to adapt ... (im going on and on about nothing now, cause i dotn feel like telling the world what happened... but i still neeed to keep a record of soemthing. i think that when people read it they might have a slight clue of what im talking about, but you know, i dont want to me the one to say so. even though when people do read this, its like i said so, so whatever. I feel like im talking too much on and on about nohting.