senior year.

It's the most stressful time of all the years I've had in high school. I've been told that Senior year is the most relaxing year of all, but to me its the hardest and the most stressful. Managing money and raising it is just one part of my stress. Right now, I'm worried about Applications to college and whether I would make it in or not. Whether I would pass my Econ/government class and be on track to graduate. Whether i can pay off all the debt to the regiment and be on track to graduate. It;s not easy being a senior, so others say. All i can really do it keep my pride high, mind clear, and stay on track as long as i can. but what else throws me off track.. are my emotions. This feeling i have can't be explained in words, and yet i can when i have the courage to. words that cant be spoken to anyone i trust, because I'm afraid they wouldn't understand. the words i have to say are about the ones i trust, and thas what makes it the hardest of all. There no one out there that i feel can understand my feelings. i can tell the people around me and yet they cant help me. I try expressing to those i trust, but yet nothing i say changes. This just continues as they were and can only get worst. no drama in my life, and im glad. I run away from drama even though its about and upon my dearest friends. I chose not to deal with it because i have my own problems to deal with. I am alone, and I feel that I will be that way for a while. maybe even into college. loneliness came into my life in the beginning, something tells me that its ganna follow me out after death.