senior year.

It's the most stressful time of all the years I've had in high school. I've been told that Senior year is the most relaxing year of all, but to me its the hardest and the most stressful. Managing money and raising it is just one part of my stress. Right now, I'm worried about Applications to college and whether I would make it in or not. Whether I would pass my Econ/government class and be on track to graduate. Whether i can pay off all the debt to the regiment and be on track to graduate. It;s not easy being a senior, so others say. All i can really do it keep my pride high, mind clear, and stay on track as long as i can. but what else throws me off track.. are my emotions. This feeling i have can't be explained in words, and yet i can when i have the courage to. words that cant be spoken to anyone i trust, because I'm afraid they wouldn't understand. the words i have to say are about the ones i trust, and thas what makes it the hardest of all. There no one out there that i feel can understand my feelings. i can tell the people around me and yet they cant help me. I try expressing to those i trust, but yet nothing i say changes. This just continues as they were and can only get worst. no drama in my life, and im glad. I run away from drama even though its about and upon my dearest friends. I chose not to deal with it because i have my own problems to deal with. I am alone, and I feel that I will be that way for a while. maybe even into college. loneliness came into my life in the beginning, something tells me that its ganna follow me out after death.

Rehearse-A-Ton !

Rehearse-A-Ton !
It's Tax deductable, and its easy !(:
(amount $) per hour or just a Flat donation.
Checks are out to "RIM Club"
I'm practicing at band camp for next two weeks from 1pm-9pm. Support me by hours or just a flat donation. Please help if you can, I'm counting on fundraisers to pay for my senior year. Thank you !

This I believe

Alex has an assignment called "This I believe". He had to listen to 10 stories in the link below:

http://www.thisibelieve.org/view_featured_essays.php

I was there listening to those stories, and it really reached out to me. It insired me to write my own. So in this blog post, I'm going to write my own "This I believe" Here's a sneak peak at the beginning of my essay. Comment and tell me if it sounds okay. Thank you ! (: <3

I believe that anyone of any level is capable of changing, even when they view themselves as a failure to fulfill the most out of life.

I’ve came across many people that tell me that they won’t make it into the real world. And even if they did, they wouldn’t make it out alive. The truth is, they can. Everything that comes towards them is an opportunity, an opportunity that can make even the slightest difference. Everyone in this world deserves a second chance, that chance to change into someone they want to become.

In High School, there will forever be good and bad students. As for the ones that have ditched more then half their classes, smokes, and does drugs; they will stumble upon a day that they regret ever starting those bad habits. At that point, they will think that there is not point in living life. It’s not a lie when people say, “There’s no turning back. The only direction is going forward.”

Raffle Time!!

http://www.rafflepot.co.cc

im trying to raise money though a raffle.

I'm trying to spread the word, but so far i have no luck. what can i do to get more people to join and visit the site ?

80% of people will win. The winnings in pot is split evenly among the winners. More money in the pot, more money the 80% gains/wins !

I believe its just that simple. The tickets are only $1.00, the more people that join, the more money's in the pot. which means if you are one of the 80% then you will win. who knows, maybe even more then you put in.

To die for !

You are surely to DIE for ! <33

You've mad me crazy for you. As each day goes, my love for you grows even deeper. You make me feel special, and all googly inside ! How do you do that !? ;D I know that you may not be the most perfect guy in this world, but who is ?! I love you for you, and your great being who you are. Those habits that we both know are not good, we can work that out together, okay !? [;


You bring back so many memories ! Cheers me up every time !
And your songs, truly are music to my ears ! cutest voice ever ! <33

Mad

Do you even think about how I feel!?
how about the promises you break?!
i try so hard to make everything in your life so much easier, and much better for you, and this is what i get in return. I get late night tear, those i shed because i care. it's as if everything i do for you don't even matter. You don't appreciate it do you? don't you understand what I'm trying to accomplish?! I've thrown many of my dreams away, because i know they will never happen. I wanted to make them work for you though. I wanted my dreams, and my happiness for you to go though. I know that you've been though a lot in your life, i want whats better for you. and yet, you make it as if you don't even care.

1) Stop smoking
2) Stop going to Morongo so much
3) Start exercising
4) Study&&do math homework

Just so you know, I only get mad at you so that you learn your lesson and know what you did wrong. You never listen to me. you never seem to know WHY i get mad at you. Its not that i want to. i just do, cause its really disappointing. I have it when you give me a reason, and it always starts with, "because i love you" THATS NOT A GOOD REASON! its stupid. BECAUSE your doing something that i don't like and your doing it CAUSE you love me ?! does that make ANY sense !? I love you, i really do, PLEASE don't make me think otherwise. I hate shedding tears. and yet it constantly comes.





















I promise i won't think otherwise.